Okay so the reason for my absence hasn't been because I am doing so fantastic that I wanted to surprise all of you with a big loss and wow everyone. I was doing very good on WW, but then I stopped going.
I know right? I'm a total loser...
I did lose some weight and I am sort of maintaining that weight loss, somewhat, but the truth be told, I am still fat.
I have been to embarrassed to blog since I quit WW, I think you all are disappointed in me as well.
I have thought of blogging everyday. But honestly, I didn't know what to say to you all.
Today I decided just to be honest. That is what I always have been on here, and whether its good or bad news, at least I am being honest.
Last night, I was in our bed watching Jon and Kate plus 8 eating Funyuns, drinking orange Kool-Aid when I told my husband, "I'm so FFL", which is a term we use with each other all the time. Even though we laugh and think its funny, ha ha ha.... but the truth is, I really don't want to be FFL.
Why can't I change?
22 comments:
I'm so glad to see you back, Manda! The only disappointment I've felt is when I check and you haven't updated - it's not whether you're successful, it's that you're trying. And losing, and then maintaining that loss is definitely trying!!!
Read some blogs - there are quite a few new ones out there - and maybe you'll be inspired to not be FFL. Any case, keep blogging - you have such an interesting life and I like hearing about it!
Hey Manda!!! Glad to hear from ya! :D (((hugs)))
I'm not disappointed in you and I definitely don't think your a loser. Not in my book! I'll be honest I have these thoughts about myself,too, about the blog. I think a lot of it is just this, it's in our minds. I'm cheering you on! :D
It's nice to see you back!! I agree with the others, I'm not disappointed at all and reading about others struggles makes me feel normal. I have times of struggling too and it lets people know that it is a normal part of the process and they are not alone. You are not alone, we have all been there! I hope you keep blogging the good and the bad and that you learn not to be so hard on yourself =)
So glad to see you back Manda! We missed you!
Don't beat yourself up about WW. I stopped doing it too, so you aren't the only one. There is definitely nothing to be embarrassed about that's for sure.
Keep your head up and I know you'll get lots of support here! xoxo
You can change, Manda! The fact that you keep coming back to your blog, no matter how much it hurts, and telling the truth, speaks volumes about your commitment. You're not FFL, you're FFN...fat for now. I'm in that boat with you. But you and me both will get to HFL (healthy for life) soon!
omg....don't be embarassed! We all go through this. Its great that you are coming back....I know thats hard.
Just remember that just because you stopped going doesn't mean you can't go back. Just because you stopped blogging doesn't mean you can't start again. Just because you've had a few bumps in the road does not mean that it will always be that way! It's never too late to start again. Don't worry what anyone else thinks. Besides, this is something many people go through, so you aren't alone. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off and move forward! You are not FFL!
I was worried about you, too.
I can't give you any words of wisdom, because I'm stuck in the same cycle of self-loathing and bingeing on garbage. Blah. It just never ends.
Why can't they make a magic pill to cure our food issues?????
You CAN change - you just have to want it more than anything else right now. And as a mom / wife / businesswoman that goes against our grain. To want something that is just for us, above everything else. Its hard and it totally sucks sometimes, but fight through it and you will be a much better person at the finish line!
It takes a lot of courage to admit we've stumbled, especially to put it out on the internet for God and everyone to see. Thats the sign of a strong woman, not a failure!
Bumblebeerunning is so right when we fall down we need to get back up.You are not a failure.You are worth the effort to get back up. I know it is hard for you with little ones and so many demands on you. There is nothing wrong with putting your health and well being 1st. It will only benifit you and yours to take care of your self.You can do this little changes by little changes.Do not lose hope. You are not alone.
first of all - welcome back.
you are already taking a BIG step on the right direction by confronting you feelings and poting on your blog. you have the power to change within you, I promise. NOTHING is ever 'FOR LIFE.'
You always have the ability to take stock and start over - whether that's eating healthy, starting an exercise plan or simply working on a positive attitude to convince yourself you are worth living a healthful life.
So many of us are here to support you and help pick you up when you fall (we ALL fall sometimes(
just have to get back up and keep on going.
it's never over...
So happy to hear that you are alive and well! It always makes me think the worst when people blog off the face of the earth!
None of your readers are disappointed in you, especially me.
We can do this together! I think by reading some of your older posts, you have this "change all" mentality, and the second you slip up, whether that's having a regular pop, whatever, you feel you have "fallen off the wagon" and jump off.
Shelley (the first commenter!) is such an inspiration of the slow but steady - look how far she's come in a year!
Maybe each day you wake up with a new goal and then slowly but surely incorporate those new goals as just part of life.
One day drink 3 glasses of water and work your way up to 8 until that's normal.
Walk for 15 minutes with your kids and work your way up to 45 minutes.
Hang in there - we all know this is a long road, but we'll get there eventually!
Sending hugs your way!!
You can change, we all can, we just need to keep trying, over and over and over. We all go through these times.
If you were doing well on WW, why not go back? They won't be anymore disappointed than we are, i.e. not at all!! Or try something new.
I hope you are well, and that you'll check in again soon.
Do not lose heart. Like you, I've struggled with the weight issue almost my entire life. Way back in university, I was only this chubby girl. But 13 years later, I have gained a whooping 77.5 lbs. and has moved from a size 4 to 18 or 20. For now, I'm still planning to recharge and get back on the right track of eating right and living right. I know it is never easy. If this body is just a nightmare, I would have forced myself awake many years ago before I can balloon to the blimp I am now. But I ain't giving up just yet. These flabs have not yet seen the last of me. I would come back again to diet another day. So should you. Keep going!
You probably think I am stalking you, but wanted to touch base and see how you are doing!
Hope you are having a good summer with the kids :D
How are you doing? I gained ALL my weight back (60 lbs) that I had lost on WW and I KEPT blogging. I think the honestly helps even during a binge. Don't give up!
Hope you're ok. Just checking in to see how you're doing. I've also sort of neglected blogging.
Hang in there. I'm rooting for you.
Hey Manda - just checking in to see how you are doing!
If you want to chat, just email me!
bdl319@gmail.com
Biz
Manda, no one is disappointed in you! Everyone goes through hard times and this sounds like "your time". If you're looking for something to write about, write about your ice cream store, your kids, your community, or just how you're trying to get your life back on track. We would love to hear any of this!
Yep, it's me again! Hope you are doing okay! :D
I would love to know how you are doing - email me anytime you want!
bdl319@gmail.com
Hugs!
Merry Christmas Manda! Hope you are doing well. Here's to making 2010 a good one! :D
Yep - me again! Wishing you and your family a wonderful New Year. Get back to blogging - we (I) miss what you have to say!
Happy New Year My Friend!
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