Day 15

I haven't had much time to post. Its been busy at the store and at home. I did show a one pound loss on Monday. It wasn't the loss that I was expecting, since I have been so good, but I realized that I am happy with it. I haven't gone off track, and I think I will show a greater loss next week. I am feeling very positive and excited for whats to come.

Tomorrow, Jake has his first grade concert, something I have been dreading. The fat mom sitting in the audience. I wanted to feel more comfortable. I really shouldn't care. I was drinking a diet Pepsi the other day and he wanted a sip. I told him he couldn't because it was diet. He asked me if I was on a diet. I said yes. He then asked me why. I bluntly said, because I was fat and wanted to look better for him and his sister. He then looked at me, gave me the biggest hug and said.."Mommy, you don't need to lose any weight, you're beautiful just the way you are".

I started tearing up. I know he feels that way about me now, but I don't want the day to come where he is embarrassed by me. Hence, my fear of the first grade concert.

I hope everyone is having a positive week, oh and Happy St. Patty's day!