I'm Baaaaaacccccckkkkkk

Well Hello there to all my fellow bloggers! I have thought about you all often, but I was in a deep state of mind. I couldn't bring myself to blog. I couldn't even check on your blogs, for thoughts of sadness and depression consumed me. On Facebook, I can act happy and be myself, or even shave some of my depression away, but on here, I have always been truthful.

So to answer all your burning questions, Yes, I am still fat. Yes I gained a lot of weight, and Yes, I am currently the heaviest that I have EVER weighed. To think that I have to start back from square one, has been a hard thing to swallow. I am truly miserable with myself.

Please don't throw me a pity party because I do not need one. Ive given myself enough of those with ice cream, chips, popcorn, cookies, and enough Taco Bell to take a bath in.

Oh, and yes, I still have an ice cream store, and yes my MIL still lives with us, and yes, my kids and husband are still my life.

I decided when the new year turned that I was gonna change, but needless to say, I have had a slow start. So as of March 1st, I have turned over a new leaf. My new goal isn't to be "skinny", its to be at a place where I can be happy with myself, and whatever that weight will be, then be it.

So with change comes old habits, and part of my road to happiness, I blog. I blog because it makes me feel better. I blog because the truth comes out easier, I blog to talk to people with the same problems as me....I blog to connect those who truly inspire me.

So I am officially back. Just like the month of March, I might be creeping into this like a lamb, but I sure hope I soon will be roaring like a lion.